Best Gift ..

As I was packing my bags for my trip to India.. I got a million things that I have been looking for the past 6 months, but in between all the million thing I get this white envelope that has my dad's company logo, it also had To Dimpy ( that's what they call me at home) written on the top. At the button of the envelope CONFIDENTIAL is written in block big letter's. Generally when you get things like these in your bag it might scare you a little bit, but I knew exactly what it was and it got a big smile on my face.
My mom without any doubt is the best in the world. She is the kind who will do anything for her daughters but will not show it to the world, not ever to her daughter's (I mean it). My mom is different she doesn't believe in being my best friend, she says I have to be a wife, be a daughter, an elder sister to six of her siblings, a daughter in law and a sister in law (ufff) so ill stick to being you mom and reduce complications. I wasn't every thrilled of the fact that my mom was not my friends till I went to the US, because now I know why and I totally agree with her. So getting back to my mom not being a very public display of affection types didn't really bother me because I always assumed that she loved me and its not necessary to show it or to tell me that. But with this CONFIDENTIAL letter I got from her gave me the feeling that I will never ever forget my entire life.

Jai Mata Ki
Not every child has the chance to fulfil their parents wishes, you are blessed and one of the lucky few who has had the chance to make her parents proud. We sometimes just sit back and think weather its just a dream.
How fast time flew. Remember we were just thinking about house its your mom and dad's wish that you should do you MBA, and now it feels like it was the toughest decision we have ever made sending you alone. Sending a girl child that to you being the first child in the family raised a lot of eyebrows. People questioned us and a lot of questions mind you, but you have proven all of them wrong. We were definite of our upbringing and confident of your achievement. You made everyone sit back and think.
It was very difficult living without you. Everyday at night before sleeping we would think how you were, what you ate, how you would cope alone in a foreign country specially when you were so extra protected back home. But we had faith in god and knew that he was guiding you and he was sending the right people at the right time to help you.
Every time we felt low you brought a smile on our face by getting an award. You kept reassuring us that everything was worth it. You proved to everyone that girls can do better than boys. More than anything you proved to yourself that you can achieve much move and much bigger things in life. I sit back and think how you would complain about my stern and over protective nature you , you would say I'm not like normal mothers that's because I was scared, I was scared that if I would be a little more liberal with you, you would forget my dreams for you. I wanted desperately by any chance for you to be very scuessful in your life and most importantly I wanted you to achieve all this by yourself. You were brought up with very less money and there were times I felt bad about it but now I thank god for it because now I can say you know the value of money more than I do, your maturity level about life surprises me sometimes I fell I have so much to learn from you.
When I talk to your friends mothers all they say " sandhya your very lucky to have swapna because she is always so level headed and has her goals in life fixed and whatever she does she has you and her father at the back of her mind always". This is when I am proud of your upbringing and I know we have done the right job. You have supported me by listening to me when ever I need you the most, you have been the best daughter any parent can ever ask. I have always dreamt of both my daughters being very educated and successful , your success has paved the way for you sister, she will follow the same path you have taken by the grace of god. She has understood at a very young age that time once gone will never come back and we have to tap the opportunity at once. She has understood that she has to achieve the same success that you have achieved .
Lastly I want to thank you because you have not only achieved mine and you fathers dreams but mostly you have achieved my fathers dreams and you have made him proud. I pray to god that if daughters are like you I want only daughter for all my seven life's.
God bless you
Mom

This will be the best gift I will ever have in my entire life..

Thank you mom

Shhhh..I hate it...

From the time I can remember I have been a people person, I have had people around me all the time. I have been talking all the time. This has gotten me into a lot of trouble during my school days but my mom knew I wouldn't change. I love being in a crowd I don't feel lost I feel its right. One reason I love my city Mumbai because its crowded. Looking at the different people around you and the fact that you will not find two individuals who would be the same fascinates me. I love crowded theaters crowded streets my college my school my family everything that involved people I love it. When I sat down to think about how this would effect or rather how has this been effecting my life I realized that with the crowd the people came the noise, and I got used to the noise.
Who would love the sound of people yelling, traffic honking, kids crying, loud television I do. I say that I love it but if you think about it a little more you would easily say that I have got used to it, its become a habit. This habit was fine it I was in Mumbai. I didn't really care nor did I think about it so much because it was always there around me, the real challenge was when I moved to the US and got a job and I had to live alone. Oh My God !!! that's all I can say..the most difficult task of my lie at this point was to get used to being alone, not having people around me and therefor live in a place where there is complete silence that's to the fact that I live in Norwalk, Ohio where silence dwells to such an extent that I cannot take a shower at night cause I might disturb my neighbor with the NOISE. This complete transition from a ultra loud crowded place to a silent solitary unit took away the most essential need of mankind that is my SLEEP. Most people you might know around you wouldn't sleep with a lot of noise around but I would be a one of a kind that would not get sleep if the place is silent.
Now weather its a problem or its my habit or I am crazy but sleeping in silents is not my cup of tea. So when you need noise to sleep and you don't get it what did I do .....I did not sleep. It took me a couple of moths to figure out why I was not sleeping, I thought my excitement was the reason that fact that I though to much was a reason I blamed coffee, work, alcohol everything I could but it didn't make sense but at last I concluded that it was silent and I couldn't bare it. Now the next question is why don't I like silence maybe because I start thinking of things I would avoid other wise or I feel alone or simply I'm not used to it even better its just easier to just avoid silence and believe that I don't like it.
To end my confusion I don't know if I have got my long term solution but I definitely got my short term one ...To get a good night Sleep I keep my Television switched on :)

A little more about me..random things

#1 My name means DREAM in hindi.

#2I belive that a smile can make anything possible.So you will see me with a smile most of the times.
#3 I am a workoholic and I love it even though i may complain and i got that from my ex- office which was an ad agency called Think Why Not.
#4 I love chocolates and can eat them day in and day out...They make me happy.
#5 I think I have the best parents in the world and I think my mom is a rockstar.
#6 A feel im very lucky to get kick ass room mates here in the US coz im alive because of them. Pratiksha and kavya are the best and will remain my BFF.(chicago mom n dad I love u)
#7 USA has taught me a lot so i am very greatful to this country. I think the people in the country are the best in the world and they havent let me miss my home even a little bit.(Julie, Bob, Brad, Gramdma...I love you guys)
#8 I hate cleaning my house and if ever i get one wish from god i will ask him for a power that will allow me to magically clean my house with a blink.
#9 It had been my dream that I want my house which is totally Black and White. I want everything in the house to be black and white, I will make sure i get a black and white house soon.
#10 I totally love dancing and I can keep dancing all the time.
#11 My fav dance form is salsa and my bestest salsa patner is Ryan coz he is a sexy dancer and i will make sure i beat him in our booty shaking compitition some day.
#12 I love to talk and i can talk about anything under the sun and hate it when ppl ask me to shut up it make me sad.
#13 It was my moms dream that i should be an MBA graduat and its my dream to make my moms dream come true, which I will soon :)
#14 Shraddha and Aishu are my best buddies in India. Shraddha is an amazing dancer and aishu is an amazing singer and i miss these guys soo much.
#15 My sister is a snob but i love her totally she is a kid, cozz she is 10 years younger to me.
#16 10 things i hate about you is my fav movie.
#17 I love pigging on all kindda food..I love food
#18 I think i can make the best Turkey keema and i am very proud of it.
#19 I actually had a t-shirt which said I AM IN SHAPE....ROUND IS THE SHAPE and i loved it
#20 I want to see all the places on the globe before i die
#21 People say I am short but i say all good things come in small packages
#22 My grandfather sayes that im his most fav in his entire family
#23 I so want to eat an Ice cream right now
#24 Its my age so I will stop here...

A new start

I always thought I couldn't write, I thought I suck in my spellings so writing is not my cup of tea, but when I decided to do this the thrill that I got was unbelievable, I had this rush of thoughts in my head of the stuff I could write..It's wired but I think its time for a change. I have random things coming into my head of what all I can write things like I did my upper lip myself today or I used my new expensive shampoo today or I went to have a yummy Mexican dinner.
I thought to myself there are so many things I can wite about and weirdly I don't have to think much, maybe that why I want to do this. After coming to the US I have thought to much and hardly acted on it. That needs to stop, I am sick of thinking...may be that's why I worked for a company called Think WhyNot ( sorry that was a sad one) I though of cleaning my room never happened, arranging my notes never happened, Calling friends never happens I don't know what but what I think I should do never happens may be I'm lazy may be I'm facebooking too much or may be I'm used to putting things away. Funnily I just typed I THINK and erased it...I should stop thinking and just follow my heart and things work. Its nice to be chilled out as long as it does not harm anyone. I am generally a chilled out person my mom gets pissed wid that but I don't see any point in being all hyper and getting worked up.
I also feel I have got this sudden urge to blog because talking is my passion and I don't mind talking nonsense because it makes me happy and makes me feel lighter, after coming to this country that liberty of talking is lost people are so busy in their own world that I am scared that I will "disturb" them when I talk. I guess ill vent it out here where I can talk anything under the sun and it need not be right. I am doing my MBA and in class we are thought how to write papers and the flow should be perfect and A should lead to B and that should lead to C but here I feel free because when I read my blog I see that my first sentence does not have any connection to the second sentence fells good...uuffff....

Last but not the least.....I will write more...cozzz I like the feeling...