2k10 ( doesn't even look like a year)...My first post of the year...wont really say "I wanted to write before...but" because this years is gonna be the years for no excuses, I was plain lazy so I didn't write. Also to be a little more nicer to myself I wanted to write about my 25th birthday so I waited this long :). 2nd Feb 2k10 the day I turned 25. This years started with a big big wave of mixed emotions. The year started with my full family with me so I was happy, then it was time for me to go back to the US it was sad. I got to be with my nani for the entire month and I took the best ever memories with me so I was happy. I lost her on the 17th of Jan I was very sad, I was away from my family and was not around when my mom needed me the most, but never the less she is not suffering any more and for sure she is in a much better place than all of us down here so that makes me keep my sadness aside and say its fine. My nani loved my birthday she always said that my birthday is the most favorite day of the year for her, because of two reason the first one was that she got the bestest husband on that day and the second one was that she got the bestest grand daughter too. Even though I miss her so so so much I feel my birthday is the day when I can celebrate secretly with her. So I decided that I will be the happiest on my nani's favorite day of the year.
Coming back to this years happy day it is the third year I am celebrating my birthday without my family and as much as I miss them I have to agree that the crazy family and friends I have here make sure that I feel on the top of the world this day. I love each and one of them and I will miss them like crazy when they wont be around. Turning 25 feels wired. I all of a sudden feel grown up or may be i feel I should act grown up even if I am not. Generally I don't think too much about the future cause I belive you mess up your present thing about the future but funnily the whole of my birthday all I thought about was " oh god I'm 25 and I have nothing in place". It vanished as the day passed :).
So to keep is short and simple I'm 25, I love my life and I miss you nani.
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